Anyone else have NO hope but still have a bit of hope?

[God]

Like I am 10000% sure I will never get a gf or have sex but I still have a tiny shiver of hope in me. Sometimes it goes away and I need some smack to get me back on track. 

I'm just sitting in my room waiting for something to happen though I know nothing will. I wish I could give up

[fukmylyf]

in alcohol I trust.

[nausea]

I worship Allah